With each passing year, here in New York, I realize how much I have accomplished since the preceding year, and how much I have endeavored to achieve. Being in New York has a way of making you feel that anything is possible and yet everything is a hurdle on a treadmill at the same time. I prefer the former. Even as I get olde-*coughs* uhh, more refined, I gain a better understanding of the quality of life. I guess that's why I made the decision to travel more, and with greater confidence, as opposed to wishing for it or analyzing the what if's and waiting for a "better time." That got old.
The more I embraced that in order to accomplish something, all I needed was a vision and a purpose, the simpler the process became. It's so easy to look at a current situation and get the self riled up over oppositions yet to be faced, and allow that to dictate the action or reaction. Yet, it's hard for people, in general, to just use the what if in a positive fashion. What if it does work out? What if you do deserve for [a situation] to go the way you want it to? Let that take precidence over stress and apprehension. Nevermind the how; that really does take care of itself, so long as you commit to focusing on the what and why.
When I first moved to New York, and I attended my first social event - which was graciously and brilliantly coordinated by the lovely Chi Chi Anyanwu, actually - I remember being welcomed by a lot of the other attendees, and given some insight and advice about the city and "the Business.' I also remember being told, by a few people, that it would likely take me a year or two to really warm up to the city and "get the ball rolling," so to speak. At those very moments, I made the decision not to accept nor embrace those sentiments and assured myself that I had arrived right on time. One month later, I booked my first gig, and have been booking consistent work, since. Of couse, I never had anything against anyone else's experience(s); I just knew that theirs were not mine and vice versa. It's what makes the difference between achieving the goals set, and trying to achieve them, based on a social formula. It's what keeps the what if's minimal/non-existent. This website is prime example, and a daily reminder for me to never underestimate what I can and will do. Dare I say that this is only the beginning? Dare I dare YOU to do the same? Until soon...
"One of the greatest discoveries a man makes, one of his great surprises, is to find he can do what he was afraid he couldn't do." - Henry Ford
Donnell E. Smith