If only for today

I may sit in my solitude, be it by choice or by circumstance, and wonder where my next step will be; what it may look like. Yet and still, I will make the step. I may consider my surroundings and analyze where the pockets of emptiness are and how they could or should be filled. Nonetheless, I will humble myself to gratitude and give thanks for even being where I am. I may question any perceived setbacks or want to challenge the old adage, "life isn't fair." However, I continue with the acknowledgment that what is for me will be for me; simply because it has always been so, before. Even if just for today.

I am prone to dramatize my state of being, at any given moment, simply because I am usually asking the question, "what else is there?" For better or for lesson - making it then, that much more profound in the long term - I dare to explore the answer to that question. I am prone to changing my mind, at a moment's notice, but not before wringing my mind of all of the many possibilities and responses that could come at me in reactionary retaliation. This is all before arriving at the point of realizing that I come first, which is where I should have started. A man of my word yes, but a man of humble transparency and honesty, first. I am prone to start all over again, with no particular order in mind, to correct any perceived missteps, and redeem my soul through physical action. Then, I will have realized that every day is that opportunity to start anew. "It could all be so simple..." Could it not?

We are not bound by our circumstances, no matter how much one or any of us would beg to differ. We really are more liberated than we give ourselves credit for. We tend to put excess pressure on ourselves to make the "right" decision, or be "good" at living life; isn't living life at all, "good?" We monetize our success and compare it to the exterior perceptions we have of others who are "successful." If only we knew the full story. We are not the sum total of our bank statements, closets or parking lots; we are so much for than we give ourselves credit for.

What if we knew just how free we really were? What if we broke free of societal shame and stepped into the true Light, the owness of Self? What if we did not allow others' perceptions steer our journeys or gravel our pathways. What if the dirt of the earth was enough? What if we emboldened our communities with spirit and monetary proportions? What if we said "yes" to ourselves, first? Even if only for today...

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